Monday, June 15, 2015

Namaste, River.

Today I was lazy like a cat. Stretched out in the sun on my homemade dock, I drank the tea from Speedway and read. Then, I pulled myself up for the walk back into the house and put on a couple bits of unmatched swimsuit, picked up one of the inflated tubes and a rope, walked back to the dock, tied the rope to the dock through the open space between two deck boards, made a loop in the rope, slid the tube into the water and myself into the tube, put my foot though that loop and . . . floated.

The normally still Flatrock was currenty and wanted to float me into the now-blooming-in-pale-blue weeds along the river’s edge. I made another loop at the very end of the rope, put my foot through that one and spent an hour or more letting the current push me toward the dock. Then I’d push off again with one foot and swoop outward, stretching the rope to its fullest length. Then float back again to the shore. And so it went. Push swoop float. Push swoop float. Push swoop float.  Roll over on my belly, push with my hand this time, then swoop float. Push swoop float.

The turtles on the log across the river ignored me. At first the leathery soft-shells slid into the water as they always do, rightfully alarmed by the presence of human. But the quiet, push, swoop float was so softly felt in their world that they eventually emerged and climbed right back up on the log, rejoining their always braver hard-shelled cousins who weren’t scared into taking a dive just because a human showed up in the neighborhood.

A fish jumped out of the water behind me once. A little one nibbled on my leg where it lay just below the water surface once.

I cried a minute or two from the beauty of it. For quite a while I didn’t think about people, or about me, or about how I was doing nothing but what I was doing, which was nothing. I knew the beauty of those moments while I was living them.

  

Namaste river. 

You have god in you.


Saturday, May 23, 2015

Hard Winter at the River and then Spring


Toads tunneled into the dirt
Trees stripped to the bone
Turtles sank beneath the muck

And so did I.

Green things and brown things
All the feathered things
Hid from that winter

Death arrived on the Flatrock, figurative and literal
Cruel to beast and man and watcher
Happiness mourned for the warmth

Time waited buried in snow and sleet
Bleak was the winter’s adjective
Endless the object of every sentence.

A frigid holiday forgot its gifts
No cheer as Christ’s day came and went
Come the New Year, still no relief.

Headlights dimmed in the cold
Pipes froze in the basement
Coyotes howled in the night

Winter poked and jabbed
Trees fell at its feet
All the live things shriveled, wondering how to survive

And so did I.

...

And yet I did. . .

...

At last, spring has bidden the sun
And the turtles onto logs
Tree frogs revived, proclaiming their survival.

Icy gray to verdant green
The river runs freely again
No man beneath its frozen surface.

Snakes dance across the grass
Weeds fight with wildflowers for dirt hegemony
At last the bluebirds came back to their happiness.

And so did I.

And so did I.